Full disclosure: I’m a little tipsy as I write this (thank you, Jameson!). It’s 10:15pm on New Year’s Eve, and I’m more than ready to bid adieu to the bitch of a year that was 2011. Just this past week alone has been more than enough, and I want to be done with it. Some thoughts, as we count down the final hours of one of the most unremarkable, if not miserable, years yet:
- 2012 will be a year of change. This is a good, wonderful, fantastic thing. Really, there’s no choice after a year like 2011. I feel like I’ve spent the entire year hashing things out, and I suppose, as far as growth goes, 2011 has been good for that (at least it was good for something). I’m looking forward to 2012 being filled with positive energy and progress.
- This will be the year that I turn 30. I’ve been looking forward to that pretty much since I turned 19. I’m thrilled to wave bye-bye to my 20s. The near-constant grappling with uncertainty is just about done, and I look forward to grabbing the bull by it’s horns and taking what I want from life. This doesn’t necessarily have much to do with age, but I think most would agree that most of your 20s are spent trying to figure out who you are. Well, now I know, and I’m ready to announce it to the world. We’ll see if the world is ready for all I have to give it ;-p
- Part of the great change (perhaps most of it) in 2012 will be a shift in priorities. Rather than fretting and scrambling to make sure the rest of the world is satisfied, I’m going to do what it takes to keep myself satisfied. Some of the things I have planned:
- More work. I know that sounds ridiculous, but it’s something I can achieve…and I feel good when I’m being productive. Also, more work = more money, and I could certainly use that at this point.
- Better health. Some of the things I have planned to achieve this include dietary changes (bye-bye, gluten..at least for awhile) and intense exercise (Insanity!, here I come. I remember how great roller derby practice felt. Since I won’t be prepared to return to the rink this year, the Insanity program will have to do. I look forward to seeing more definition between my waist and hips. Oh yeah).
- Reading and writing more. I’ll admit, I read a hell of a lot as it is. My blogrolls on Tumblr, WordPress, and Google reader are overwhelming…but I really miss books. I have a list of books that I’ve been meaning to read. This year, it’s going to happen. Also, I’ve grossly neglected my personal writing as a result of work. The truth is, the writing I do for my job is completely different than my personal writing, and there’s no good reason for me not to be able to do both. I had registered this domain as an incentive to write more…so this year, I’m going to use it. So there.
- Playing and listening to more music. Supposedly, I’ve been playing the harmonica for almost 2 years now. That’s total BS. In all honestly, I’ve played for maybe the equivalent of a week and a half. It’s pathetic. I know I’m capable of more, and I want to be able to wail. This is the year it happens. It just takes regular practice…As for listening to music, I did a little bit in 2011…but I don’t feel that I discovered much. Sure, there was some Bon Iver, Junior Kimbrough, and Karate that came from a dear friend’s influence, and then Florence and the Machine, Adele, and Beyonce on my own…but I know there’s a lot of great music, and it makes me sad that I was so out of touch this past year. This shall be resolved.
- Making time. I used to argue with my dad all the time that I didn’t have enough time to do one task or another, and he’d always say “make time”. I thought that was ridiculous, because there are only 24 hours in a day, and nothing can really change that. The truth is, however, that it is important how you use those 24 hours. Lately, I’ve been awake from 1:30pm-4am, and sleeping the rest of the time. There really isn’t much you can do after midnight, so there’s no way that I’m making the most of my time. This year, I’m going to turn my schedule around. I’m going to be up between 8 and 9am every single day, so I can maximize my exposure to sunlight and people, and so that I can be more productive when it comes to work and errands. In return, having a regular schedule will make my free time in the evenings and weekends all the more precious.
- 2012 will be the year I get back on the road. My car’s engine died back in March, and I haven’t driven since. At the moment, my license is suspended because I never turned my plates in (:grumble:), and I won’t be able to reinstate it until February. That’s fine, because I won’t have a car before then, anyway…but god, do I miss the freedom of having my own car. I will save up the money that I need to get everything in order, and then I will hit the road running. I have so many places to go…Boston. Vermont. Pennsylvania. Syracuse. Virginia. I can’t wait to wave good-bye to the municipal bus system, and to drive the winding roads through the fields, and over the mountains here in the Hudson Valley. :sigh: